mood: content

music:the beatles - 3koolkatz

hmm. i haven't updated in a while. i'll make it short and sweet:

i met my chemical romance, school is over for the summer, i have some pink hair and i have a job. hellyes<3

me+gerard

NOTE: these are real haha<3
aren't we hot?!
heh<3








!!!



my hair:

mood: content

music:my chemical romance - bury me in black

wow! the past few days have been eventful. i went through one of my infamous antisocial stages for a while...i think that is over for now though. hah. umm friday after skool, i hung out with emily for a bit then went to subway for lunch. then friday night, i went to burlington with samantha and ivey for a show. i had so much fun<3 saturday i didn't really do that much, just kinda chilled. sunday, i met this kid thalen for coffee-then ended up watching movies. i finally got to see napoleon dynamite. sweetstuff. i went into school late today. i felt kinda blah when i woke up, so i slept a little longer. worked on my color notebook and all that shit at school today. then this afternoon i played frisbee with juanita's son teejay. it was so pretty outside today. i sat out there for forever. started a professional frisbee team too. after school i hung out with karl and lyndsey for a bit...we went to their friend's, then got a bite to eat. watched the game tonight. talked to sammy on the phone for a while...talked to courtney... tomorrow i have a conference @ school for registration at 11. my friends wendy + buffy [i've known them since i was in elementary school]...their grandpa died. :\ i'm going to the funeral tomorrow. my appointment with dreino was at 4, but i changed it today so i can make it to the funeral.

so much drama @ school lately. wtf. haha
whatever though.

i'm glad i've actually done some stuff. it's probably better for me to keep busy. >>$#%#$<<_ this entry is random. <333 pamela.

mood: content

music:nfg-boycrazy

don't you love how just hearing a song can bring back memories and recreate the actual feeling that you felt back in the day?

<3.

mood: content

music:this bitter pill - dashboard

happy belated valentine's day. seriously. i had the best one i think i have ever had...and i am single. i didn't think that was possible. haha. but seriously, it's not just about love in the couple way. you do not need a significant other to enjoy valentine's day. it is about all sorts of love. family and friends. i had an absolutely wonderful day yesterday. i got tons of valentines at school. i hung out with my friend brittany that afternoon. she brought me a red rose and a balloon. we chilled for a while. then later i had dinner with my parents. they gave me all sorts of things-including a new charm for my pandora bracelet and a pink rose. yay. i just had a super day. a happy day. it was my first valentine's day being content with me too. maybe that has something to do with it. sure, i still have my down times...but now they pass--and that is normal. i am not constantly full of sadness. or constantly filled with happiness. this is real life. living.

i'm getting old and that is scary. that's okay though.
things are okay. :]

i got roses and i don't even have a boyfriend.
actually, i've never gotten a rose with a boyfriend.
what a happy valentine's day<3
for real.

mood: horny

music:bright eyes - a perfect sonnet

&&hi. i got a perm today at school. with the perm i did on my grandma last week, that ups my total two more. yay. however, i'm still only like a third of the way through perms. wtf? i'm going to have to come back this summer for them and it sucks because it is not even my fault. :\ everything else is going to be done. bleh. oh and this no live model shit...wtfe i'm babbling. umm i'd just like to graduate sometime soon...

//i kinda wanna do some color on my hair. i have no idea what though. something kinda random-it'd sorta have to be random with my haircut--all the layers and shit. i do not want highlights all over or anything like that. eh i dunno. some days i want to, some days i don't.

i am totally talking about nothing.

>>i'm tired. i should go to bed early tonight, but i won't. eh. i hate getting up early. fkdskdsoe;

eh. buh.

ps-i am not horny [my mood]. i just think that lil grrl looks cute next to the word;

mood: accomplished

music:simple plan - welcome to my life

i got new eyeshadow, so i am happy.

mood: melancholy

music:sos - gc

i can't fucking sleep. i just keep thinking. it's like old times. great. i've been down lately. i assume the worst; falling-falling; fading.

eh. on happier notes, state almost won [haha] and friday i went out with this guy josh. it was fun. we went out to dinner and hungout and such. i was supposed to go out with cos friends sat, but i didn't feel like it.

umm. i do not want to go to school tomorrow. i'm so tired of it. fucking bullshit. i just want to graduate and work. i'm tired. i've written like 454358439543 pages of poetry in my real journal. i mean, i write almost every day, but the past week or so has been nuts. good for me and bad.

darker. losing. fading. crying. smiling. hating. dreaming. wishing. nothing;

nothing;
nothing;
nothing;

this makes no sense. but neither do i.

i've just got to get myself out of this.
and...
i can.

right?

eh. i just crave an old release. i cannot do that though-but it's hard not to.

wow. this looks like one of my old, emo deadjournal entries.

nice.

mood: sleepy

music:bush - comedown

yay.tomorrow is friday<3

mood: jubilant

music:something corporate - i kissed a drunk girl

look how much my hair has grown. !
i'm even wearing the same shirt. haha

then.2k2



now.2k5

mood: bored

hey! i need to know the answer to this.
who do i make a cuter couple with?
benji or gerard?

BENJi -n- PaMi<333


GERARD -n- PaMi<333



this is WAY important, so please stab me and leave a comment with your answer, okay?

pamela<333

mood: content

music:helena - mcr

hi. how is everyone? i'm doing swell. friday i went to the movies and saw white noise. today, i went to the mall and out to dinner. i got a new candle. had a nice time.

some things are just fucking wastes of time.

hope everyone is doing wonderful<3 i am. :]

oh. i came to a realization.
i spent so many years of my life
only focusing on the bad.
now i try to spend my time
thinking of the good.

i have really came a long way.

pamela<3

mood: calm

wtf is up people? hah. umm i've been doing good. i got a perm the first day back on the floor. HELL YES. now i only need 22 more this semester. wtf?!!!??!?!?!?!?! for my class to graduate on time like 500 people need to come in and get perms. yeah. today i did a haircut on this guy and got a $5 tip. rock. he wanted something different cause his hair is thinning on top...he asked what to do to help with that...i suggested something and WALAAAH. he loved it. super.

last night i went out to dinner with my friend valerie from high skool. well actually high and middle school. we met in like 6th grade and all that. anyway, it was absolutely wonderful to catch up on everything. we sat there chatting for forever. we had not hung out since we graduated. i saw someone else i knew from high skool when i was there. imma go see his band play [a couple more of my friends from back in the day are in the band too]. so, cool.

today after school, i took amanda r home. she invited me in and i hung out there for a couple hours. fun stuff! we looked at pictures, talked and all that good stuff.

i took a nap when i got home from her house. now i'm jus chillin.

holla<3

mood: indescribable

state lost. boo. so sad. out to dinner. wal-mart. bought kiss the girls, buffy the vampire slayer [the movie is where it's at] and antitrust. yay. so happy. watched a movie tonight. back to school tomorrow. i'm ready. i just decided that. ;]

<3 pami.

??lots on my mind

some things are falling behind
losing touch with what is there
wondering if i even care;
tomorrow is new-
today is past
some things lost
some things will last;
Forever.
changing and gaining,
losing and fading.
hoping and wishing.
dreaming and draining-
the old from the new
the start in my view
holding on...
to what is coming;
dreaming of things
too real for the word
writing my own
future
following The Plan.
and living the entire
Way.
agree;
each day<3

mood: amused

music:sugarcult - she's the blade

i had a weird dream last night! a nightmare, but kind of not!!!

i was at the same place that sally and i stayed at the beach, however it was in winston...not at the beach. but the beach was in winston. well, i walked outside to put some things in my trunk and my car was stolen.

sooo. i went back inside and walked back out a little later and it was back, but in a different place. i walked over to it and this crazy ass, huge, bald dude with big black glasses on and a gun was squatting next to it. he had stolen it earlier and now he wanted to kidnap me.

i ran back inside through these middle eastern people's room [i had left that way for some reason]. they were going nuts asking ME what i was doing. i was trying to tell them about the guy with the gun, but i kept running to the lobby so i could lock the main doors. i was yelling for someone to call 911, but no one would. they were saying they didn't have any money to use in the pay phone and they didn't want to waste their minutes on their cell phones.

i had a gun in my purse, but you know how much shit is in my purse if you know me...so...i could NOT find my gun!!! i was in the floor going through my purse, looking for my gun like a madwoman, screaming for someone to call the police. finally, some dude went up to the payphone and put a nickel in and told me their number was busy.

at this point, that nutty guy with the glasses was at the front door tapping on it with his gun. no one seemed to be concered except for me? finally i got to the pay phone [i don't know where my celly was during all of this], then i couldn't remember the number to call. once i did, the cops finally got there. it was a huge mess.

WTF?

sooooo. i woke up. however, when i went back to sleep...i was at the same place. all that had happened earlier and i found out why i was there. my grandma's neighbor's daughter was getting married and i was in the wedding. my dress was all madonna-80s-riffic. it was blue and black. i had on these HUUUGE spiked heels. i was worried i was going to fall down. i took my shoes off once i got to the actual ceremony [which was in my grandma's yard...yeah, this making more sense]. then when it came time to leave, i could only find ONE of my shoes [i'd put them under my dad's truck, next to where the bridesmaids were standing]. there were two shoes, but the other one had a tiny heel. so i just put those on and walked out with mismatched shoes.

the reception was at a waterpark. everyone was there. i was wearing my fingerless skull gloves. i took them off and left them at the top of the waterslide cause i didn't wanna get them wet. i was going to walk back up and get them after i went down. when i came back up, the girl in front of me had stolen one of them and had it on. she had started to go down the slide and i yanked her back up and told her to give me my glove. she had gotten it all wet already, so i just wore both of them the rest of the time.

WTF?

mood: accomplished

*kicks you*

mood: busy

music:oscar and the vanity girls - trashy style

hey! well, the past few days have been nice. i got to see my adorable lil cousin, john cole<3. he was at my grandparents. i gave him his "purprise" which was a spiderman wallet. he loved it! sunday [after state and the panthers lost *cries*], i went to the movies with samantha. we saw shark tales. it was cute! tonight i'm doing something with sally. holla<3

mood: content

music:christina - what a girl wants

hey! soo i hope everyone had a very nice christmas<3
i did.

christmas eve we went to my aunt's and uncle's in charlotte. my lil cousin, john cole, told me that he and i are the kids and tried to get me to hide under the table with him and open our presents early. hehe. he's four now. i can't believe it! umm...christmas day we went to my dad's side of the family. was a nice weekend. tonight i went out and sang karaoke. i've been doing that a lot lately. *sigh* so much fun. i miss theatre and such a lot. hmm. anyone wanna go with me? you don't have to sing if you don't wanna! jus pick a night. heh. umm...that's all for now. hope you're doing well<3

pamela.

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You are a Square. What a weirdo.


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